I Long To Know This World

I am proud to announce that have some new friends in This Beautiful Republic.  They are some great guys and have helped me learn a lot about myself.  They have provided an opportunity to minister, to travel, to perform, to be a part of an artistic community away from my own, and to be myself.  They have a song whose lyrics I want to share with you.  The words to this song, titled “Surrender Saved My Life,” resemble my conversion experience a lot.

I have had enough, buying ashes with my love
I don’t need this
I’m pursuing counterfeit
I’m worth so much more than this
I don’t need it
I don’t need it

My flag is turning white
I need Your hope tonight
For the first time
Surrender saved my life

When will all this end?
Must I open up again?
I don’t need this
Healing hurts a little more, but I’ll be stronger than before
Yeah, I need this,
I know I need this

Keep my eyes focused, You are the long run
There’s no time for giving up
We’ll make it
We’ll make it

So there you have it, a great song from a great band.  Now, I don’t know about anyone else, but I couldn’t help but feel after years of denial and resistance that I was putting up a white flag to God.  I soon realized afterward that that wasn’t a bad thing.  I surrendered everything I have and everything I am to Him and I am eternally grateful.  The healing that I needed wasn’t easy but I was assured I had it.  Ben is right when he says “but I’ll be stronger than before.”  I feel it.

Thanks for reading this petty literature.  I am 24 years old and writing about how song lyrics impact my life.  Wow.  Peace out.